Heart :-(

Since my dad passed away I have come to realize that the saying' Heartbroken is an actual real thing and feeling, I have this unbearable pain in my heart. I just wish some one could call me and say it's okay we got your dad back. I cant stop thinking: WHY? WHY? WHY? I wish he could show me he was happy and okay.

How are me and my brothers supposed to live with out our dad it's not right. I look at old men in the street and I think to my self: why did god let you be an old man and he didn't let dad? When I was at home one of the sad things was going to the kitchen and looking at all the special foods dad got for me coz we liked healthy stuff and my brothers don't too much, he got me white asparagus and all sorts :-).

Even tho me and dad didn't always get on I loved him and I know he loved me, I just wish I could turn back time and be nice to dad last year. Or just some how find a way to talk to him just once more, Any thing!!!!

I want my dad back, please!

Today

Today I had a really lovely time, I went to a place called Great Falls its a massive place that you go to hike. I climbed for the first time in my life lol I am so scared of hight's usually. I did complain a little bit hehe but thats just the diva in me.

You walk around and climb up these rocks its hard but you feel good after you finish its like you have been to the gym. My mum would have been so surprised, I don't even know how I did it!?!..

I am going back tomorrow to see the water fall. I am excited! I cant wait to see how beautiful it is. I think that it would be a nice place to put my dad to rest, because I know he would have been very impressed.

Update tomorrow...

Kaycie. xox